Ill try make this clear and to the point. I have wasted enough time asking for advice in the past. I do not want to live, and the only reason I remain alive is because I do not want to hurt my family members. This makes for a miserable existence on my part. Why am I so miserable? My life has just been filled with.... bad luck. I have tried to do good for myself, but I just cant seem to catch a break. I try, I really do. I was a miserable child, I am now a miserable adult. I am a 24 year old male (soon to be 25). I have never had a relationship. I have tried, but I also seem to go nowhere with relationships. I am a virgin. I wish I could start a family and have someone to love. It would make a world of a difference. I recently lost my job and I have not been able to recover since that. Im running out of money. Its just not good. I have had work trouble ever since I completed high school. I went on to a technical college, that went bankrupt and took all my saved up post secondary money. It ruined a large portion of my life and changed my outlook on society. How is it possible to get out of a rut? And do not bring up God into the equation for me, I do not believe at all.