i u nderstand that thought process i say that alot myself when i am no longer a carer then i can have peace I too so badly want to go but there willalways be ones that i will cause so much pain to if i leave. You need to know that if it not your mom it will be another you will hurt greatly You are not that kind of person who would knowingly cause somuch sadness to another .. Get help for your depression and stop the torment now okay just do it There is no need to live with the sadness I too am trying so hard to get help because i know down deep taking you life will only pass the pain on I will live with the pain and not pass it on it stops with me.
I can't be held responsible for the state of mind of everyone I know. That's too much. I'm mortal, I'm going to die one day anyway and they'll have to deal with this one way or another.
I've made peace with my torment. I take solace knowing one day I'll be free.
Just read your origional post prophet. Youve had it really hard!
Havent got anything constructive to say whatso ever but just wanted to aknowledge what you have been going through!
You have my admiration for being this strong for so long xx
Thank you for your kinds words.
Prophet,
Your story is one that no one should have to deal with. The best things that I can tell you is that you need to get back to working, and somewhere that you will enjoy going to everyday. Go to therapy and keep up with the martial arts. How do you do the work outs with your back?
Anyway, you're young. Go out and have fun. Make some memories that will last you forever. I'm 18, I've been depressed since I've been 7. I'm finally happy and enjoying life. If I can do it, I know you can.
Ronnie.
No, screw work, I want to be left alone. I don't like people any more, I want to be left to do things on my terms. Therapy never worked, I've been under the care of 2 therapists in my time.
I don't do the work outs any more, the pain is too bad now and my mobility is compromised. I'm not interested in going out and having fun, I just want to go.
I'm glad you've come out the other side still standing and I hope you enjoy a long happy life. You're stronger than I ever was.