I've been coping for a few months now, been keeping myself busy but now the darkness is back, for all i have done i still get nowhere and no appreciation from others for what i have done to help them. I feel utterly alone despite being married, no job, looked down on for claiming dole and pains that never go away. Sometimes i wish everyone would line up and give me a kicking to get it over with. I have no place here and not a friend in the world. How do i carry on coping? the will to live is becoming more and more eroded and i'm too emotional to keep fighting. i would love to talk to people but i'm too scared to use chat i get so far then i can't bring myself to enter the chat room and i don't know why.