As some of you may already now i suffer form moebius syndrome. Really psychically its rather mild. I mean i can walk and talk an do pretty much anything the next person can do. But the problem is my face is paralyzed making it very difficult to socialize with people. So far Ive isolated my self from social interaction and sometime don't leave the house for up to weeks. To tell the truth I'm not suicidal i just want a nice quiet life with a few good friends. Over the last few months though i started a bad habit. After having a tooth pulled i was giving a large supply of painkillers... The first time i took some i felt pure bliss for the next 3 hours. Like all my problems dissolved away...i was hooked. Right now I'm at a crossroad. I want to go back so badly to taking the pills but with out them i pretty much would hide under a rock. I hate being alone and isolated its like a disease slowly rotting me away form the inside. All i know is every minuet i spend fighting this is one less down the road.