My Successful Suicide...

Discussion in 'After Effects' started by yin and yang, Mar 26, 2009.

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  1. yin and yang

    yin and yang Member

    Well, I'm very new here, and thought I'd share. I did commit suicide once, attempted it many times, but succeeded once. I overdosed and was found by my friend (who is now dead) and I was taken to the hospital. I was clinically dead for a short time, but was revived. I have a very high tolerance when it comes to substances, so I basically stayed up all night and kept going and going and going until my body just shut down.

    I remember being jolted back into reality, my organs contorting trying to work again, trying to breathe. My body was expelling some kind of yellow chalky fluid out of my nose and mouth. I couldn't stop shaking. It was a very scary and awakening experience. I do not remember dying, as I was unconscious. I could go into what I experienced while I was dead, which is a whole other story within itself.

    But my view on death isn't a bad one. To fear death is to fear life, for they are both one in the same, both coexist to create the miracle of one thing. Sure I believe people should stick around, see what there is to see, and fulfill what we were put on this earth to do, experience. I know sometimes it is hard, as most of us only experience the darkest of perceptions throughout our journey in this life. But back to my point, I don't fear death whatsoever, which worries me in another sense of the matter. I have died once, I know what it is like, it doesn't scare me. Which means if there is nothing holding me back like fear or attachment, then I know it is very easy for me to do it again and next time I won't have anyone to find me.

    As with any story there is more than meets the eye, but I wanted to share a bit to let the you guys understand me a little more and give the screen name and avatar you see a little more depth to me as a person, not an internet entity.

    So that is my experience.
  2. downunder

    downunder Well-Known Member

    What happened once you died?
  3. 1izombie

    1izombie Well-Known Member

    yeah what happened once you were dead???
  4. Godsdrummer

    Godsdrummer Guest

    I dont think Ying should answer that in the forum. Perhaps a pm, but not openly in the forum. I would love to hear that too, but I am worried that it could become a triggering event for someone.
  5. yin and yang

    yin and yang Member

    I understand, I have already told one person in pm what happened when I died. I understand how it could be a triggering subject.
    I will write it all down and send it to anyone who would like to hear my experience.
  6. 1izombie

    1izombie Well-Known Member

    I would be interested to if you like to share that would be cool...PM me

  7. jameslyons

    jameslyons Well-Known Member

    I'd be interested too.
  8. Rosenrot

    Rosenrot Forum Buddy

    I wouldn't mind knowing myself too, unless it's religious.

    Shoot me a PM, I'd love to hear.
  9. wastedmylife

    wastedmylife Well-Known Member

    yea exactly, usually these religious freaks come in and talk about this amazing meeting with god or angels, they usually set it up with a story like yin yangs
  10. jameslyons

    jameslyons Well-Known Member


    Funny :laugh:

    After my attempts I became more and more cynical. Dying= cold, numb, and sometimes a deep throbbing ache.
  11. If Yin wouldn't mind sharing, I would be interested in a pm as well.
  12. yin and yang

    yin and yang Member

    ok will send
    ok, and no it is the furthest thing from religious
    it isnt religious at all, I'm not a religious person at all, I am very spiritual but I'm not religious

    Ok, I will send you guys my experience. I have it written down where I wrote it to send to a couple of people yesterday.
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  13. Beautiful Disaster

    Beautiful Disaster Forum Buddy SF Supporter

    im really curious now too

    if you have the time, could you pm me?
  14. yin and yang

    yin and yang Member

    I don't mind, I will PM you as well
  15. corang

    corang Well-Known Member

    Can I get a PM of the story please? ty.

    Unfortunetly me too >.>
  16. wheresmysheep

    wheresmysheep Staff Alumni

    hhahahah, i would liek in on your mailing list too, nice to hear a coheriant "death" experience, and not 'ooh there was floaty pink clouds' :smile: so if you could send me it too:biggrin:
  17. Petal

    Petal SF dreamer Staff Member Safety & Support SF Supporter

    I'd like one too ,am interested to know what happened :hug:
  18. Øyvind

    Øyvind Senior Member

    Would like to know too
  19. Scars and Memories

    Scars and Memories Account Closed

    Hey, I want to know what happened, can you send me a PM too?
  20. wastedmylife

    wastedmylife Well-Known Member

    same thing, i bet your experience had to do with god angels and this amazing peace and you want people to convert to whatever you believe
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