my suicide note *could be triggering*

Discussion in 'Poet's Corner' started by tintin, Mar 25, 2008.

Thread Status:
Not open for further replies.
  1. tintin

    tintin Guest

    I don’t want to fight no more I just want to go
    I lived 17 years of this life but what have I to show?
    Scarred arms and bruises and broken bones
    Not to mention a broken home

    What have I got to live for more pain and more fights?
    I don’t have the strength no more I don’t have the might.
    I just want to swallow the bottle and wash the pain away
    I want everyday I breath to be my last living day

    I want the taste to stop coming that makes me gag
    I don’t want him coming in my room for quick unwanted shag
    I want my belly to stop growing I want it to go small
    But all the things I want I can’t have at all

    So dying is the only way I can get from this pain
    I want to do it in a way so I wont have to try again
    I want my mum to hold me close tell me everything’s alright
    But I only ever see her when am sleeping or at night

    I see her calling to me to take me far away
    But yet each night I wake up to another dreary day
    Mum tonight take me to where there is no pain
    Take me to where I wont feel his fists again

    I see her calling to me to take me far away
    But yet each night I wake up to another dreary day
    Mum tonight take me to where there is no pain
    Take me to where I wont feel his fists again

    Written as a suicide note
    By Rebecca Beaumont
    13.10.1990-01.04.08

    I am sorry to all those who tried to help I guess I am past help.
    Please forgive me.
    I will be always greatful for everything you have done.
    Please don’t be upset I am at peace.
    I will never forget you especially Laura and Alyson and everyone at S.F
    You helped me so much thank you
    Love becca x x x x
     
  2. carol2237

    carol2237 Guest

    Becca baby,

    I know you feel this is the only way. You have been through alot. I am sorry you feel like this is the only way because you, as well as I know it isnt. Why dont you try to look back on the things you said to me last night. I care about you hun and I am always going to be here for you. Always. PM me hunny *huggles*

    Caroline
     
  3. Petal

    Petal SF dreamer Staff Alumni SF Supporter

    Becca, Are you still with us? Please dont do this, please reconsider, do you have people that you can talk to about this(in real life)?
     
  4. Christianv2

    Christianv2 Well-Known Member

    Please dont go. I may not know you personally but nobody wants to see you go. You can contact just about anyone for some support. Im always here to talk if you see this, see my sig and message me anytime. If theres anything I can do, just ask. Dont go! You have support here. Best wishes to you becca.
     
  5. tintin

    tintin Guest

    yes am stil here.. next tues is my date. nd yh but talkin bout it dont really help. i tlk to a gurl at my col nd my tutor.. she knows hw am feelin but i tld em am okish nw so thy dnt bother me as much... i jus cnt bare "him" havin power over me nd wt e duz so i need too am sorry...
     
  6. Petal

    Petal SF dreamer Staff Alumni SF Supporter

    aww hun, if your tutor and friend dont seem to help much, maybe you should contact a therapist, its gotta be worth a shot. Or maybe you should go back and tell yout tutor again that you are not ok, because they cant help unless you let them. also, maybe you can reconsider and pick tuesday as your day to get some help :hug:
     
  7. tintin

    tintin Guest

    i have seen counsellors b4 nd gt beats for it. it is never going to stop my tutor cant stop it and when i went police my dad stuck up for HIM my own dad doesnt care.. it has to be tuesday if not i have to wait a whole year!! it has to be that date, it jus does. im sorry
     
  8. Petal

    Petal SF dreamer Staff Alumni SF Supporter

    Your dad is obviously playing a big role in your troubles, can you not maybe move out or stay with friends to get away from them , anything has to be better than ending your life hun, you dont need to do it your so young.


    p.s im sorry for your loss
     
  9. tintin

    tintin Guest

    i dont have anywheri can stay.. my dad could stop HIM if he wantd but obv he dnt... he sed he wasnt even goin t give me funeral as noone wud come nd e ryt.. least wen it dun with i will be wit my mum.
     
Thread Status:
Not open for further replies.