In the back of my mind I have always thought about suicide. At times I wish my life would simply end. I dont know why I even bother getting up in the morning. I admit I lied to my psychologist when he asked me if I was suicidal. I didnt really wanted to shock him & others nor did I wanted to be taken to a mental institute. I have seriously thought of hurting myself. I hate myself. I hate my life. I'm totally miserable. I really dont see the point of life.