After my father was hospitalized due to jaundice, I am feeling alone and seeing more of what life will be like once both of my parents are gone (they are 86 and 87 now). I know within the next 5 to 10 years they probably will be going. I feel very unprepared for this. I live alone and spend most of my time alone. I have felt for a long time I would not kill myself as long as my parents are alive. Now that I see the possibility of being alone and without them, my thoughts are turning to suicide again.