Im alone pretty much all of the time but its better then stumbling over every word talking to someone and feeling like an idiot. I just feel like all im doing is making it through another day. I get no satisfaction from things i used to enjoy. I cant make myself get out of the house anymore, i pretty much jsut sit at home and look at the computer screen or tv all day. I havent been going to school for about 2 months now, and plan on dropping out when i turn 16 if i even live that long. when i talk to anyone about sadness they always jsut say go to a doctor they'll help, but the thought of being on meds day in and day out scares me. which is entirely stupid because ive been taking vicodin daily for a while now, not sure what its gonna be like when i run out. *sigh* and i could go on forever but its just making me feel worse right now.