My thoughts at the moment..

Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by Smiling Corpse, Jan 2, 2008.

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  1. Smiling Corpse

    Smiling Corpse New Member

    Im alone pretty much all of the time but its better then stumbling over every word talking to someone and feeling like an idiot.
    I just feel like all im doing is making it through another day. I get no satisfaction from things i used to enjoy. I cant make myself get out of the house anymore, i pretty much jsut sit at home and look at the computer screen or tv all day. I havent been going to school for about 2 months now, and plan on dropping out when i turn 16 if i even live that long.

    when i talk to anyone about sadness they always jsut say go to a doctor they'll help, but the thought of being on meds day in and day out scares me. which is entirely stupid because ive been taking vicodin daily for a while now, not sure what its gonna be like when i run out.

    *sigh* and i could go on forever but its just making me feel worse right now.
     
  2. ithuriel

    ithuriel Well-Known Member

    why not try doing something random and different just to break the pattern you are in.
    just go for a walk , get on a bus and see where you end up.
    if you end up being surrounded by inbred mutant cannibals :blink:in some backwoods place all of a sudden then you won't even have to worry about seeing the doctor:laugh:
    my friend got me out of the house on new years eve , i was turning into a limpet stuck in front of the p.c.:eek:hmy: it did help.
     
  3. Smiling Corpse

    Smiling Corpse New Member

    Ive been attempting to think of some way to get myself out of the house, but i cant seem to get the motivation to do any of it. Be nice if i had friends that lived close enough to get my ass out of the house. But i will say that this forum is helping me a lot tonight, i was really far down in the dumps earlier.
     
  4. ithuriel

    ithuriel Well-Known Member

    i know what you mean , something so easy becomes such a task.
    this site and the poeple here have been such a big help too.
    today i feel so tired and apathetic if it was an olympic event i could win it , possibly:smile:
     
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