my thoughts, for what it's worth

Discussion in 'Poet's Corner' started by theleastofthese, Jul 6, 2007.

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  1. theleastofthese

    theleastofthese SF Friend Staff Alumni


    Some of us deal with depression by
    easily becoming irritated.
    I am guilty of that.
    I pick on my kids,
    and the person ahead of me
    in traffic.
    I recognize this failing in myself
    and feel (more) guilty (than I've a right to feel).

    Some of us are so swamped
    by despair that we take out our anger
    on anything that crosses our path.
    I am one of those. I am consumed by regret
    for my actions and words, but still they come out unbidden,
    always at the wrong time
    and always towards the wrong persons.

    I mean my anger to be towards myself
    and myself alone,
    as I am the worst criminal ever
    simply for drawing breath.
    I mean no harm to anyone else
    but just my being alive
    brings harm to others.

    There is no justice anywhere anymore.
    No rightful payback, only hurtful actions
    and words
    mostly directed at those least deserving of my anger.

    Rage is such an ugly, though familiar thing.
    I sleep with it, live with it, talk to it:
    wondering how I came to be so intimate
    with such an unfriendly entity.

    My fault. My sorrow. My mistake.
    Please forgive me if I strayed from the
    boundaries of decency.

    I cannot see very well anymore
    and am not always responsible
    for my actions.
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  2. Terry

    Terry Antiquities Friend Staff Alumni

    :sad: :hug:
  3. ari

    ari Staff Alumni

    There is the great injustice of this horrible disease
    tis the fault of none, but harms the most important, self and others
    when we feel like we cant hold the blackness back
    despair is the path that we have been traveling
    those that stand with you will not let it consume
    sorrow is felt all around
    comfort and a lending hand is near,
    can you feel the strength of my tears?
    my feelings and thoughts do not despise, there is no reprisal.
    I stand with you with you, we will stand tall, and not fall
    please take heart dear one, we will not let you depart without a fight.
  4. gentlelady

    gentlelady Staff Alumni

    Least, I can feel every word in your writing. I do not agree with your assessment of yourself, but I know that depression truly does cause you to see yourself in that light. Know that we are standing beside you to help you walk down this path as only friends can do. :hug:
  5. White Dove, I've told u before. U R Not Ugly. Why do u keep saying U R?

    Beauty is in the eye of the beholder. Haven't u hear that before? I don't think ur ugly, So Please stop self bashing UR NOT UGLY:hug:
  6. thesemomentsastheypass

    thesemomentsastheypass Well-Known Member

    Hello you,

    Wonderful writing as always.

    I've been away for a time. So glad you're still around these parts.

    'Speak' soon

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