I'm fed up of remembering things that should never have happened, fed up of being jealous and paranoid. For a while i felt 'normal' but now it's all back 50 times worse... I can't even have a conversation with someone without shit running through my head I look at people and all i see in my head are the things they've done to me i've tried to forget it and move on, act like it never happened like they do but it doesn't work anymore. COnversations play over and over in my head. Trying to have a nice normal conversation and all i can think is why am i being nice to them when they have done so much to hurt me.... He was threatening to get me sectioned telling me i can't cope that i'm a liability all because i was trying to be happy, he hated me, i wasn't his sister, i wasn't their daughter, i wasn't part of their family, told them all i'd chosen to leave them behind when he was kicking me out....getting framed and blamed for shit i didn't do....why? just so that they will all hate me? or so that i will think i am insane? so that they'll all turn their back on me?...... i just don't know anymore. All it took is one girl to fuck my head up again and bring everything back.....it's not even her fault......it's no ones fault but my own.