Please just let my die so i can find the rest i need. i hurt to much and i can not take the pills and pain anymore. i can not take the pills nightmares and vocies any longer. deep down i allways new this will be how my life ends with suicide but i know i will die happy in the fact that all the pain will go and i can sleep forever with out fear of bad dreams ever again. I am only a person but i do have feelings i am not mad but i am hurting in ways that is hard to tell.