I have had plans for the past few months on when I would end my life. Just needed a little bit more time to get things in order. Today I went to go to work, and my car is dead......Maybe a sign my time is here......I just needed a little more time to save up enough money to give to my daughter. She hates me, and hasn't spoken to me in 5 yrs, but I wanted to leave her and her children some $$$... I guess she won't get as much as I had wanted to give. I hate life. I hate me. I hate the world. I want to die. I want the emotional pain to stop.