i tried one last place to find some help...didnt hurt to try....but i guess im too far gone to be saved in anyway. so i guess this time, its my final goodbye. thanks to the two ppl that tried, hope it makes a difference for other ppl. im out of strength to keep up what ever im trying to live for here...so, goodbye. ps.; i know u wont miss me.....b/c if u say u do...i know ur lying..cuz u dont kno me...im just another user that came and left. all the best to the ppl that still can work things out.