i wonder what you would look like.. my asian eyes with her white skin? boy or girl.. guess i'm never going to find out because in a short week, mommies going to get abortion. she promised me she would keep you too.. not like the moneys not there. all she needed to do was move in.. but i guess thats just too much to ask. why settle down and be in love with one man when u can run around and get ur f*k on with so many other. but than again maybe shes right.. why bring another part of me in this world. the hurt, misery i feel right now. it wouldn't even be worth it. is it the guilt i feel thats been causing me to have all these nightmares.. or are you trying to tell me something?.. i want to just die with you and leave it all. she asked if i would hate her for doing it.. the abortion.. i didn't say nothing. truth is i hated her for just thinking about it.. maybe it just wasn't meant to be. we didn't fit, her and me.. one day. i will pull this trigger and u'll regret all that u've done.