dear the members of suicide forums; i have to leave this place, i just have to. since coming here i suddenly didnt feel so alone anymore, i felt like i wasnt a freak. ive planned my suicide, although im trying like hell to tell myself not to go through with it. my problem is i see everyone i make friends with dead or going to die, and i cant take it anymore. ive had the last straw, and i dont want to see another of my dear friends even attempt it. i still think im kinda weird, just because friendship means so much more to me than it does most poeple, i treasure my friends, i think because i have so few. :unsure: everyone here is so special, yet i continue to see one person after another leave..and its very painful to watch. ive fought for all of my friends because i love them, and dont want to see them go, and im sorry for my selfish acts, but damnit i need my friends, more so than anythign else. :sad: im sorry but i must leave this place, as i cannot bear to se another friend kill themselves. im sorry i just cant go on. thank you for all of those who have been there for me.