I have come to the realisation that when something bad happens in my life, I go through what I call a vicious circle in terms of emotion. This circle consists of three phases. In order to initiate said phases, something needs to trigger them, for example, having a rough day. Phase one is sadness, general self-pity, the wonderment of why this is happening to me and why everyone else's lives look so happy, etc. During this phase I tend to keep my emotions to myself. Phase two is anger. This is where I let everyone around me be aware that I am pissed off, even if it isn't their fault. I find someone to blame and I blame them hard. This often results in conflict, which I hate. Though I get a slight sense of satisfaction once I've let off my steam, so I then lead myself into phase three. Phase three is calming myself down, and just chilling out. I usually think that the results of phase two have affected me positively, so I start to think the best in life again. Until something else bad happens, then the phases start all over again. I now know that my emotions run wild through this crazy system. What I don't know is how to get out of it before I really hurt someone.