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My way of letting it all out... "Abduction of Self-Worth"

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Nuri

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Heres my method of letting it all... I write songs... It's not finished but I had to stop before I overloaded...

Abduction of Self-Worth

Chorus

16 to 23 years old… so cold
The sons you never wanted
Failures, the both of us… in your thoughts
Sorry we couldn’t be the perfect children
Found in your dreams of the future
I guess you’re stuck with us
The sons you never wanted

Verse 1

When I was born, you were torn
“Not another mouth to feed…”
In your thoughts
I wasn’t worth the seeds
Of which I was formed from
My brother watched my mother bleed
For what? I never made the grades
That you made for the both of us

Verse 2

As I grew up, I was through
With life and all it’s games
I’ve seen my stars fall down
From high up in the sky
Friends have left and friends have died
Right in front of my eyes
The ones I always wanted
Jack and Jill the departed

Chorus

16 to 23 years old… so cold
The sons you never wanted
Failures, the both of us… in your thoughts
Sorry we couldn’t be the perfect children
Found in your dreams of the future
I guess you’re stuck with us
The sons you never wanted

Verse 3

You say that you’re proud of us
I’ve never heard so many lies
Drunken fools have beaten me,
Cheated me and left my soul to burn
Of course they tried to lie so I couldn’t fly
In turn we let you down… everyday we frown
Time and time again you use your tools
I’m left feeling so small that I used to be tall...

Verse 4

I’ve never tried to hold my head up high
To what I’m supposedly worth
My mother and me are manic-depressives
We’ve never been sane enough to take the blame
My brother he’s a drug addict...
Cannabis is his gateway out of here
From the fears of the real world
Cocaine, any other drug you can name
He’s tried them all… aren’t you to blame?

Chorus

16 to 23 years old… so cold
The sons you never wanted
Failures, the both of us… in your thoughts
Sorry we couldn’t be the perfect children
Found in your dreams of the future
I guess you’re stuck with us
The sons you never wanted

Verse 5

When I was gaining education for the sake of your nation
Crawling down the hall of your chosen school
Became part of my daily routine
From what it seemed… I always was the one to fall
Abused, used, you name it… I’ve witnessed them all
I’ve never told a never soul
While cowering in my hole
Wasn’t that the way to ‘play ball?’

Verse 6

My mother she was never the brightest spark
Yet she never really did have the best start
Her father was in the RAF, strafing from station to station
Nation to nation... She never had a chance to have the best education
When she settled down in ‘merry (c)old’ England
She got herself pregnant, when was 16
You could say she was living the dream
Until she gave birth, my half-sister was given away
There was nothing my mother could say…

Chorus

16 to 23 years old… so cold
The sons you never wanted
Failures, the both of us… in your thoughts
Sorry we couldn’t be the perfect children
Found in your dreams of the future
I guess you’re stuck with us
The sons you never wanted

Verse 7

Father, I’ve seen my head forced close to a brick wall
I’ve seen knives come and go like prowling meerkats
Searching for a mate on this very date
Leaving nothing but a flood of blood
Beneath my big old feet...
I could never ‘fill’ my Size 11 shoes
No matter which ones I chose
I suppose I was empty from the day I was formed

Verse 8

People always used to hate me
They were never alone
After all, it’s fate… Something we all hate
As we await our destiny
Karma, Karma, I guess you could say
I get punished for being born
With numerous thorns…
I am no perfect Rose, I’ll admit
For the most, I’ve hit the nail right on target
Of failure

I'm going out now... I'll finish it when I get back... This is song comes right from the bottom of my soul...
 

Nuri

Well-Known Member
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Chorus

16 and 23 years old… so cold
The two sons you never wanted
Failures, the both of us… in your thoughts
Sorry we couldn’t be the perfect children
Found in your dreams of the future
I guess you’re stuck with us
The two sons you never wanted

Verse 9

Inside myself I hide
Till the day that I find
A better part of me
Oberserving on the outside
Motionless, Emotionless but
Not devotionless... I'm worthless
Yes, Father, I wanted to die...
I died when I was 8
When my self-worth was stolen and
My pride was ripped from me...
Not that I ever had any
Couldn't you tell? Or were you so binded by money?
You know whats funny?
I heard you mention the words 'bank-rupt' today
What a suprise... No money...
I lost my money when I died inside
I'm bank-rupt, father, not you.

Verse 10

I've never heard my songs of praise
Hell, no ones written a song about me
Especially not a positive one
I awaited my praise from you day after day, Father
They never arrived... whole heartedly...
I still await them, dear Dad...
They never arrive... not a single letter...
I break things, father... glasses, everything...
You lecture the hell out of me... I'm human...
Humans make mistakes...

Chorus

16 and 23 years old… so cold
The two sons you never wanted
Failures, the both of us… in your thoughts
Sorry we couldn’t be the perfect children
Found in your dreams of the future
I guess you’re stuck with us
The two sons you never wanted

Verse 11

I'm in love, father... I'm bi-sexual...
I'm head over heals for
The most amazing person that
Has ever stepped foot on this tainted planet
She's from America, dear dad...
Whats that you say, Father? Money?
I'll sort that out... I'll do what ever it takes...
She's worth every effort... every penny...

To be continued...
 
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