All the years I stayed in my house, no exercise or anything I was stick thin, I actually looked anorexic. I did not have an eating disorder though, then years later after being on psychiatric medications I have gained so much weight, I'm actually afraid to weigh myself, last time I weighed myself was about a month ago, I was about 14 stone (196 lbs). Even when my boyfriend comes over for a cuddle, I can't leave him put his hands on me. I am so ashamed of my weight-and to be entirely honest I am not doing anything about it only feeling sorry for myself. I am addicted to coca cola (I know, how ridiculous does that sound?) I drink about 4 litres a day( If I don't drink it, I actually get severe headaches), I eat healthily so I know its the coke putting on the weight. I have a pretty face and nice hair which is a godsend for me but I just need to tackle this weight problem. I find it hard to go for walks because my medication make me feel weak. Rant over. I know weight is not everything but my nieces communion is on the end of next month and I wanna look good.