I found a way to reach my first love ever, which was like 4 years ago. I decide to talk her, ask her if she ever fall in love with me. What happened, I told her how much I sacrificed for that love, how my life have been suck because of that love, now need to know the truth to keep going, and that will mean a lot for my entire life, actually would make a big different. What I got? I get HURTED. Sorry, but I can't say... I just get hurted You have no idea how much she was mean to me, how much I loved her, how much I think of her, even for a 4 years ago relationship. I just got the answer. I deserve it, I always been trying to contact her and get the answer, I just got it. Now that should make the difference for my life, but how can I keep going? The only idea I think of is suicide.