I always saw myself as ugly even before it got really bad. As a result, Ive always gone years at a time between relationships.
The one thing I had going for me was really nice hair, at least until it started receding in my teens. I held onto it for a while, but I finally had to give up on ever having a hairstyle again. It's at Hulk Hogan levels of balding now, and I look fucking terrible bald. This also takes away my favorite feeling in the world, which is having someone play with my hair.
I just wish I had appreciated my ability to get a girlfriend or boyfriend back when I still could. My other mental issues prevented me from seeking them out, and the ones who liked me and gave me a chance always ended up leaving when my depression resurfaced.
My final relationship happened when I was 28. I'm 31 and know for a fact that it's over. I'm about 100lbs overweight with a weird shape that wouldn't even appeal to people who like fat. My face is pretty jacked up too. It's seriously at the point where I hate being in public because people can see me, and that makes me super uncomfortable. Who the fuck would want someone as pathetic as me? Not like it would matter, because even if a miracle happened, I would fuck it up and they would leave
The one thing I had going for me was really nice hair, at least until it started receding in my teens. I held onto it for a while, but I finally had to give up on ever having a hairstyle again. It's at Hulk Hogan levels of balding now, and I look fucking terrible bald. This also takes away my favorite feeling in the world, which is having someone play with my hair.
I just wish I had appreciated my ability to get a girlfriend or boyfriend back when I still could. My other mental issues prevented me from seeking them out, and the ones who liked me and gave me a chance always ended up leaving when my depression resurfaced.
My final relationship happened when I was 28. I'm 31 and know for a fact that it's over. I'm about 100lbs overweight with a weird shape that wouldn't even appeal to people who like fat. My face is pretty jacked up too. It's seriously at the point where I hate being in public because people can see me, and that makes me super uncomfortable. Who the fuck would want someone as pathetic as me? Not like it would matter, because even if a miracle happened, I would fuck it up and they would leave