I'm reading everyone's replies here. Feeling like I relate a lot.. I have a shaky place to live/ was facing homelessness 4 months ago.. I found a stranger as a roomate via online websites. Like roommates.com, diggz, etc. I paid memberships just so I could frantically post and message people about a place to live.
I'm 100 overweight.. Fat. never had a relationship. Because mental health wasted my youth too... My parents just died and I've no family or friends. I work minimum wage jobs. I understand how isolated from the world it feels..
people scare me too..
I'm rooting for you... It is possible, there is a way. ..don't give up... Even if you think its all BS.. I feel that..