I am grateful for being able to get this far in my recovery. However, I am struggling with the AA fourth step. I just feel like it's all just a reminder why I drank in the first place. Right now, I have some stability in my life, but I feel like it's not going to get better. I said in another thread how I had a part of my support system let me down involving the mental health system. I don't mean to sound so dramatic, but that day nearly ended with me drinking because I felt that upset and hurt. Right now, I just feel like I'm back to where I started before I started drinking almost 10 years ago and that's trying to overcome the hurt and pain from the past, including dealing with some of the current hurts. I do want to continue with my sobriety, but I just feel like my life will never get much better than just being sober, working a menial job, and...that's really about it. Sorry if this didn't make much sense.