3 weeks from now is the 1 year anniversary of breaking up with my ex--the 11 month anniversary of finding out 1 month later that the entire 8 year relationship had been a lie, that she had been with another man for who knows how long, that everything she had ever said to me had been a lie. I have, amazingly, survived, though I came so close to ending it so many times last year. But I am so tired of still thinking about her every day, how angry I am at these people who stole 8 years of my life, these people who will never face justice of any kind for what they did to me. I know they are beneath my contempt. I know I can do nothing except control my own behaviour, and never treat anyone else this way, even though I will never again trust another human being, and will always expect to be cheated on in any relationship I have in the future. I know that the only power I have over the situation comes from never contacting her or her associates again, never responding to any of her emails. Still, I am so tired, so weary of this. I was completely destroyed as a human being, and I have only really begun to reconstruct myself. I just want this poison out of my veins.