Its been nearly 3 weeks since I failed :sad: I hate that I am stil trying to fight! I spent the 1st week getting over side effects and recovering and then ever since have just spent the whole time trying to avoid thinking about any feelings or acknowledging the voices - an impossible task!! I'm back on my meds have been since trip to a & e as my mum gave me no choice and neither did the crisis team but they have not changed anything. I still spend every day fighting the suicidal thoughts and feelings and those voices they still come to haunt me. I'm sure they love just messing me up!! I am back at uni now and am trying so hard not to let anyone see anything but a happy me but it is very hard. I've only been at uni since sunday and I'm already struggling. Once my room door is shut I just crumble :sad: I can't talk to my family about it all as they just get angry. definatly cant talk to my cpn about how I feel as she doesn't even take me seriously - since my od she now thinks I have an anger problem - what a load of crap - the only reason I get angry is because she never helps. The one person I could talk to I cant and has let me down so much - I thought she was there because she cared and actually wanted to help but all she has done is completely ignore me. I never wanted to rely or need someones help but now I'm alone and have no where to turn I feel even worse and even more alone - I am so scared and just dont know how to conitnue life feeling like this - its not fair.