So it has been about 20 months since any sort of self harm from me..but I am so tempted right now. The urges have been ridiculously strong for about a week now, and somehow I've avoided it up to this point. I dont know that I can go much longer though. Everything in my life is pretty much falling apart. I wont go into detail, but basically I'm at rock bottom once more, with no one around me who could even begin to understand. Maybe I should just go ahead and get it over with...nobody would know but me.