:sad: so last night i told someone part of the stuff i havent told anyone...it was ok. but now im realising i didnt accept it before..and its..sinking in. hurts so much. grr been crying for o a good 4 hours..pathetic i know. damnit. cant stop. so badly need a hug right now. also pathetic. but then theres no one here anyway. :sad: :sad: how do i make it go away???