So about a two months ago i was asked out by a co worker to go out to a party, we drank, blah. Well got to her place and she asked me to come in, i never did this before, i was alone both emotionally and physically alone. She is around 20 years older than me, and shes my first. I told her and she thought she was ruining my life not letting me live life with young folks. But people like her dont come around often, so i told her i love her, plenty of times, she tells me sometimes, i usually say it first. Same thing with kissing, i have to kiss first, ive asked her and she said she doesnt like to say it alot. She says when she wants something, she gets it herself, so when i try to use her logic, it always seems to be a bad time. When i asked why, i find myself arguing with her, she seems to be set on shes right about alot. No saying sorrys after an argument, not saying she was wrong, but when shes wrong id like to see some sorta "im sorry" moment. Ive alwaye told her i love her, sometimes she says it back. I guess id like to be chased not the person chasing.. Whats the thing to do or say, not trying to get in her pants, just want to feel loved.