I will keep this short, as I am really in need of some advice. I have huge problems with my emotions and suffer from Clinical Depression (diagnosed and on Antidepressants). I am extremely sensitive with relationships with other people, getting hurt by other people, and being rejected and broken up with. When I say extremely sensitive, I mean getting broken up with, literally sends me into suicidal depressions, and each time I have gotten worse. Yes I have attempted suicide in the past. My whole life I have been completely obsessed with finding a partner and I have been hurt in so many different ways. I got out of another relationship about a month ago, and still my depression is worsening. I want to feel completely "numb and emotionless." I don't want to feel pain and rejection anymore, and do not want to feel sad or depressed or angry. I would rather Flatline my life than feel the completed up side of joy and the complete downside of depression. I have read different articles on this subject, and I read that it is possible to 100% completely control your feelings so you wont have to feel this way, and to channel yourself through different outlets..... has anyone done this and been successful? This is my ultimate goal.... I need advise, opinions, etc.... Please help me!