Don't worry about emotions you aren't feeling right now, for me personally it took over 7 years to cry over it for the first time, if I'm honest I had completely forgotten it had even happened and then one random day it sort of came to me & I started sobbing uncontrollably, I felt so stupid & humiliated, but I'm an idiot & I kept it to myself, I didn't tell anyone what was going on (Nobody saw me cry anyway) and I tried to bottle it up, then I talked to some friends online (About other things, but they were aware I was upset about something, they just didn't know what), I calmed doesn't & after a few months I started feeling fine, relatively of course, if I'm honest to this day I'm still not very comfortable with physical contact in general but now it feels awkward, back then it genuinely terrified me.
I don't know what kind of advise I can give you, but I do know that talking about it helps more than not doing it.