Hi, I will describe my situation and then maybe I can get advice/input from others. I have bipolar, I do take meds which do help a lot but not 100%, I have high functioning autism, and I have agoraphobia. I have an adult son with low functioning autism who is dependent on me. My husband is disabled too. All of that would be ok, but, social services are constantly threatening to take my youngest son. They have taken him in the past and then gave him back. This time they say he would be taken permanently. They dont think someone with my problems and my husbands problems can look after him properly, but he is fine, they want perfection, perfect school uniform every day, never late for school, nit picking day after day, we are pestered daily. July is when they have the final meeting to decide if hes taken for good. If he is there is no way I can carry on. It would be cruel to myself, I wouldnt want to see anyone go through that, I need to plan what to do and how. My eldest son has already said that he cannot live without me and would do the same. Thats his choice, I cant stop him once I am gone. When I was a teenager I lost all of my family except my mum in a terrible incident, then a few years later my mum died, I dont have any friends because of the agoraphobia etc, no support, my little boy is my whole world. And he doesnt want to be removed, he said if they take him again he will hold onto me so they cant take him, but they get the police there, and they actually took him away in a police car, can you believe it, they are animals. I have attempted suicide before a few times but it was totally unplanned, this time I need to be realistic and prepare because I do not just want to end up getting sectioned and locked in a hospital, I would never get over losing my son. I can hardly even bear to think about it. So I am sure you can see I have little choice, my son is young enough to forget me all together in his new home. Life day to day is absolutely miserable anyway, like being in a prison. I just have to be careful not to mention suicide before july, if they think I am suicidal they will take him for sure, because then it 'proves' I am incapable.