I posted a day ago, but my post was either too long or not interesting.. I just want some advice to whom I could talk or where can I get help, because I come to realize that I need it.. I don't trust people around me because usually I just get used by them and thrown out... The only person I trusted is my girl, but we broke for complicated reasons because we still have feelings for each other.. We've been a good support to each other throughout past months but I just found out that she slept with her best friend and I can't trust her anymore or talk to her.. So now I have nobody at all.. I am a foreigner living in USA.. All the stress I experience and depression, all I can think of is ending my life.. Taking an easy way out, instead of suffering and feeling this constant pain every day.. I'm scared that I can go for it, because I don't really feel anything anymore and nothing frightens me besides hurting my family... It's like how can I do it without anyone realizing that I'm dead..