:i'm sorry: where does it end..... the nitemares, the flashbacks,the memories. i carnt be strong any more it hurts to much. im such a weak idiot who deserves everythink im gettin rite now. im not sure how u can carry on anymore there seems like there is no end to the nitemare of this life. I can not cope with the no sleep no rest, always being on edge. why carnt i just be stronger an beat him, why dies he always have to win. I carnt take this anymore. unfixable.