I have finally come to realize that I need to get some help. Lately I have been really depressed. I will just stand looking at myself in the mirror crying wondering why I have to go through this. I feel like I have lost all of my friends. I'm very lonely and no one understands. My boyfriend of 3 years just broke up for good this time. I tried to talk to him about it but he didn't care to listen. I've told two friends and they just think I'm talking crazy when I told them I believe people that die early (car crash or whatever) are lucky.. lucky that they dont have to deal with the pain of life.. At one point years ago I use to be happy. I use to have lots of friends. I feel like no one cares about me at all. I'm suppose to go to college next year and i decided to stay home and go to a tech school because of my boyfriend and now that we aren't together and all my friends are going off to school I feel like crap and so alone. Also yesterday was prom and I did not go because I didn't have a date. I feel so jealous of all the girls that got asked to go. I tried to get my ex to talk to me so I wouldn't feel alone but he was actually out himself.. I just want all this pain to end. I want to kill myself but I'm to chicken to. I also know my family just wouldn't understand. I don't want to feel like this anymore and I wish someone could help me..