Alright, the depression that started a couple months ago and led to serious suicidal impulses and attempt is finally disappating. But now I'm stuck trying to move back into the world and it's really, really difficult. Whereas before I'd stay in my room all day because of anxiety, sadness and the yah yah yah, now it's the afternoon, I've just taken a shower, and have no idea what to do with myself. I'm not comfortable outside, and all the negatives of being a shut in have already happened--failed semester of school, fired, relationship gone, no close friends. I don't want to give the impression that I never leave, I feel comfortable going to the grocery store, going to the cinema or bookstore, but nothing serious. I'm having trouble acting like a person. I don't know what to do or where to start. My finances could be much worse, but I only have money for about two more months rent, bills included. I need a job, but I don't know how to sell a job loss and absence due to extreme psychological distress. Emotionally I feel much stronger and confident. For the first time in a long time I'm not thinking and behaving under a chemical upset. And what should I do about school? I haven't been kicked out of my classes but I've automatically failed due to absences. Does anyone else have experience with coming back to society? I was thinking of confronting the school administration via one of their counselors to address what happened academically. Besides that I'm lost. God, under soft light my arms look terrible! Deep purple scars.