I've had so much happen in the last year and am just struggling to cope. I've tried talking to my partner, I've explained that I feel suicidal and worthless but he doesn't know how to deal with it. I'm self harming just to release the intense build up of frustration I'm feeling. I feel like my head's going to explode and only watching the blood stream out of me calms me down. I don't want to do it, I'm embarrassed and ashamed. I have three young kids which have prevented my suicidal thoughts going any further but I'm seriously struggling. I can barely get out of bed at all. I need help