This is all a little weird for me so please just bare with me. For the past couple of weeks Ive been having the urge to commit suicide. I don't really know why this is happening or how to deal with it. I don't feel really sad or depressed or anything. Just a strong urge to start cutting myself up. Then there's the fact that they've been getting more and more strange. Like lately for no reason Ive been thinking about tryin to decapitate myself with a chainsaw, which is a weird though and kind of confuses me. I'm not really depressed, though I do feel like I fuck up anything I attempt. Its more of a deep down tiredness. Also Ive noticed that Ive been isolating myself because i just kinda wanna be by myself. I don't know whats going on. I have no idea if I have a mental disorder or this is just some fluke but I needed to tell somebody about it.