i've been feeling this way for quite some time. it went away for a little while and i thought i had "beat" it. i'm so sick of dealing with it. i almost want to do something small, like cut myself to see if it relieves the pain. i'm so sick of dealing with this, and i feel like i can't talk to my family about it, because i'm supposed to be "the rock." i have no insurance, i don't have money to pay for doctors, and i don't really have anyone to talk to. what should i do? i can't go on living like this. seems to me there's only 2 options: get help or just do it. i'd really rather get the help, but i sincerely feel like if i can't get the help, i'll just take care of the problem myself. who do i talk to? i really feel like this is an immediate crisis. i'll be checking back. someone please help.