Im very suicidal. Thats all i think about. I see my kids and start crying. I see friends and cry. I know i need help But i just cant say anything.i need someone to step in . i spoke to people on my treatment team on friday. They understand where my thoughts were taking me. I was suppose to do a checkin this weekend but thats not working out too good. I have a difficult decision for my home if i go in the hospital. My kids have nowhere to go. They would end up in foster care . I think that is why i havent been put in yet. I wont live if i dont go in but id never be able to live with them in foster care.i really need someone to be with me.