Just Antagonised my ex who I live with as he got jealous, he said some awful things so I hit/ slapped him whilst we're laying in bed. I couldn't control myself it took about 30 more minutes of antagonizing fir him to snap and he pulled me by my hair and then held my throat with o e hand. I'm not frightened of dying so layer there Hopi g he'd finish. Obv he didn't and then went to housemate across the hall and lied about the whole thing. Told ne I dud it to myself and I'm making things up. It hurts a bit, which I dont mind but can j prove he did it?! I just want to prove it tomorrow if I need to? He said he's clever enough to know how to hurt someone without leaving a mark. I honestly don't care he did it, it was wring for me to hit him to begin with but like I just said to a friend on the phone just now, I wanted it. I wanted him to finish it. I've never felt so much peace.