I have always experienced depression since I was a child. Suicide has always been there in the back of my mind. Recently just started a whole new life at college. It's stressful as it is, but I met a girl and fell in love with her. We went out for two months but had a bad break up and she won't speak to me anymore. Worst of all she gave me scabies and I can't seem to get rid of it. Not even the medicine from the doctor is working and I spent nearly all my money on it. Now not only can I not be with her, I cannot be with anyone. This makes getting over her seem almost impossible. I don't know how to deal with this, my will is completely gone. I live on the fifth floor at my dorms and I constantly think about jumping over the balcony. Someone please give me some advice. I don't know what to do.