I remember being around seven years old and doing sexual things with the girl who lived next door. She was my sister's age so she must have been about 12. It's a vague memory and I cannot remember specifically if there was vaginal intercourse. My question is: does this sound like 'abuse' to you? I cannot really determine if it had any sort of negative impact on my life. But it's such a strange event in my life and I cannot help but think about it sometimes and it still confuses me. I remember being a willing participant I think. I don't think she hurt me physically. And also, she was black (I'm white). I find myself today being more and more attracted to black girls. You think that might have something to do with it?