hi ... i guess my name is nae....since i was 11 years old i wanted to kill myself and not be alive anymore im in high school now and i dont i feel more empty than i did in middle school im just a quiet fat girl that people are sort of cool with and i just don't know what to feel i feel lonely and empty .My mom she yells at me because i dont up or because i had attitudes and i start crying she yells at me more she just don't know how i feel inside and its breaking me and more i hide behind a mask that no one knows i hide my cries with a fake smile and im fat and ugly....sometimes i know people or friends make fun of that but in the inside i cry but i dont show it i just laugh along no one doesnt know the real me a girl that cries 95% at home i know im young but i just cant take life anymore i think about what if i was dead would people miss me or even care ....i just dont know anymore my heart and my soul is broken into a million pieces ....