I'm on a down cycle again, and I feel like I'm going nuts. Just reachig out. I use weed but I don't have any for a while and when I can't get it I get suicidal. I strugle with it when I can't get high, and it feels like my head is going to explode. I'm scared I'm not a bad person, I don't deserve this, but I didn't listen. So here I'm. I'm on antidepressents hoping that it will work. :blink: what's next?