O.k. I didn't want to ask this out in the open but I'm desperate here. And I've asked something similiar to this before but I'll try to be more detailed this time. Here's the situation- There's a woman I care about very deeply. I met her here but she doesn't post or hang out here. She has being abused and mistreated her whole life. She's currently in a very bad marriage. Me and her have been talking over the internet, talking on the phone, and sending letters and packages for two years now. I was the person she called whenever she felt bad. Feelings were getting deeper and we had just brought up the idea of getting together in person. But then something bad happened. She was trying to talk about something spiritual and how it related to me and her and a relationship. But she was going about it in such a round about way I had no idea what she was talking about and got impatient with her. She became furious and she told me to never contact her again and that I was out of her life for good. A friend recommended just giving her some time and that she might talk to me again if I communicated with her later. This seemed to be the case after awhile as She sent me a couple of short emails. One telling me to only use a certain email address(she had two but closed one out.) The other recommending a certain type of eyeglasses as I had mentioned I'm getting new ones. But then in an email I brought up the plan of getting together like we talked about before and she became furious again. First she woke me up with a instant message on my phone telling me to come online and chat. And when I did all she did was yell at me. I couldn't say anything right. She attacked everything I said. Every word. She went back to that one conversation and how much she hated me for it and that I had broken the rule about not contacting her(she didnt mention the fact that she had emailed me) It was crazy. I just don't understand what's going on with her. As women what do you think? Why would she send me a couple of casual emails like nothing was wrong and then go back to being furious and telling me to get out of her life again? Do you have any ideas to fix this? She's so mad. But I love her. She wants to just throw everything away but I want to make it work. Make it right. Do any of you have any ideas? Anything will help. The more ideas the better Some other things I think are strange- When I first came online she seemed concerned that she had woke me up and that I had work the next day and that maybe I should go back to bed and get my rest. But I wanted to talk to her(I thought she wanted to back to are normal talks) so I said I'd stay up and talk to her. But then thats when she started yelling at me. It seemed strange for her to be concerned about me getting rest for work and then screaming out her hate for me and that she claimed she wanted nothing to do with me and that I shouldn't be contacting her. During her rage the only thing that slowed her down was when she asked why I went back to the plan of getting together. I said "Because I love you and made a promise to you" She stopped for a moment not typing anything. She seemed stunned for a moment but then went back to raging on me. Another thing that seemed strange was that at the end of her yelling she said "I'm out of here, Goodnight" instead of "goodbye" or "get lost" It seemed out of place with her overall attitude. I'm in a bad way over this. Very much so. And I don't get it. She's been so caring up til now but she doesn't seem to care one bit about my feelings about being rejected. She remembers that we met here and that I get suicidal over rejection. But she's given no thought to that when it comes to this matter. She's just so mad at me. Well I hope that rant made sense. I'm looking for women's insight in what she might be thinking in acting like that and more important what I can do to make things better if possible. Oh and please don't tell me not to be involved with married women, to move on, etc..., I love this woman and want advice to make it work again if possible. Thank you.