Hmmm well i know i shouldn't really be around here but ranting seems to help me alot right now, so here goes....
I've been feeling shitty the last few days, last night i ended up burning myself again. Seems to have become a habbit of mine. Got a few bad marks on my arms, that seem to be taking a long time to go away :cry: I was feeling like doing it again so i thought it would be best if i went to sleep then at least i couldn't do anything. So i left a message for someone on msn, and it was taken the wrong way.
Come on SF this morning and read a post :sad: called someone straight after seeing the thread :sad: found out someone i REALLY care about has been up worried about me all night :sad:
I feel sooooooooo guilty about it, words can't even describe how bad i've been feeling today, been soo damn tempted to burn again and right now im REALLY tempted and i dunno what to do.
Apart of me feels that i should be punished, be punished for who i am. I don't like myself at all and i don't understand why people say they like me, even love me! i don't see that there's anything to like or love about me, i just don't get it :sad:
Need to be punsihed for hurting people...
for worrying people...
for being me...
I NEED TO BE PUNISHED!!!
I NEED TO BE!!! :cry:
I've been feeling shitty the last few days, last night i ended up burning myself again. Seems to have become a habbit of mine. Got a few bad marks on my arms, that seem to be taking a long time to go away :cry: I was feeling like doing it again so i thought it would be best if i went to sleep then at least i couldn't do anything. So i left a message for someone on msn, and it was taken the wrong way.
Come on SF this morning and read a post :sad: called someone straight after seeing the thread :sad: found out someone i REALLY care about has been up worried about me all night :sad:
I feel sooooooooo guilty about it, words can't even describe how bad i've been feeling today, been soo damn tempted to burn again and right now im REALLY tempted and i dunno what to do.
Apart of me feels that i should be punished, be punished for who i am. I don't like myself at all and i don't understand why people say they like me, even love me! i don't see that there's anything to like or love about me, i just don't get it :sad:
Need to be punsihed for hurting people...
for worrying people...
for being me...
I NEED TO BE PUNISHED!!!
I NEED TO BE!!! :cry: