Hi
@davidcan. Welcome to the forums. I'm sorry you're going through this.
As
@Champagne said, it doesn't seem like you are getting adequate treatment, and I'm sorry for that. I wonder if there are other alternatives you can try and find such as online therapy or more regular phone calls. Maybe this could help you.
It sounds like you're in a tough spot at the moment. A lot of people on the forums have been there, and I'm sure you can find solidarity or help on the forums.
Stay safe. I hope you can feel better soon. Sending hugs
.