Hi I am new. Tonight I have found myself ready to give up. I am tired of hurting. I found out that my husband is a sex addict and had been cheating on me for 15 1/2 of the 16 years we have been married. In addition to the infidelity he also gave me a token of his lifestyle which is 3 sexually transmitted diseases. To add insult to injury he not only had sex with other women but also prostitutes and gay men. He is diagnosed with bipolar disorder and borderline personality disorder. He confessed what he did and has sought help. I am struggling with forgiveness. He is very suicidal himself. I have 3 kids. I know they won't recover if he commits suicide so I stayed with him. He thinks I should just forgive him and move on. I am really struggling with life right now and can't talk to anyone about it. Because of his mental illness it seems like it always goes back to him and how he needs help and reassurance. I am silently loosing my grasp on life. I am struggling being there for him and ready to give it all up myself. I really want to stop hurting.