need to get away

[Unregisterednot]

I'm trying hard to stay away from this site. I know I am not better, but I don't think coming here helps all that much. I know it helps a little. But does anyone feel like they have the same problem, not being able to let go?? I came to this place about a couple of years ago when I was completely down and out. I'm a little better off now, but I still can't stop coming here. I find myself having to check it out every day. I did good for the last few days but here I am again. and to make it worse, the suicide part of the forum is only accessable when you log-in since a few months ago i think, and I'm trying hard not to log in but I feel like I need to read this stuff. Everytime I feel like I want to kill myself I think about sf. I think about coming here and I know I don't get much help here. none at all the last time I posted in fact. It's all cliquey but so is every other forum. But I can't stop coming here. anyone understand what I'm saying?? I need to get away from this :S

 

[Esmeralda]

Maybe reward yourself for staying away for a certain period of time? This can be a habit like anything else, so maybe if you have a motivation for breaking that habit, you will be more likely to stick to your goal?

 

[dazzle11215]

this is not the only one place i get support, i have the hotline, the mental health nurse, a therapist and a shrink. i'd hope that you have some other supports in place, too, so that this is not your only outlet when you feel suicidal.

if visiting here doesn't help you (and i have no way of knowing if it's perception or reality when you say you are ignored whenever you post), why do you keep visiting? it's an honest question. it's kind of like the trigger warnings on parts of the forum. if the website triggers feelings of loneliness or isolation you'd be much better off with an in person support group.

finally, i wanted to say even though you see a bit of a clique here (other people might call it friendships), there are plenty of us who are not part of that small group and who want to help. please give us another try.

 

[Sa Palomera]

Hey there,

SF is different for each person. For some it's helpful, others it only drags down more. Some find it helpful at times but not at other times.
I know the feeling of needing to get away from here (at least for a while), and that's why I've been "On Leave" for a bit. Can't say it's helped this time around, but you never know.

I think there are some sort of cliques, though the term cliques sounds so negative. Like dazzle mentioned, friendships is a term I prefer. And I find myself to feel left out a lot of the time, due to not being able to enter the chat room. I think that, just as in real life situations, friendships (or cliques) are formed more easily when chatting with each other 'live'. :dunno:

If you feel the need to stay logged out cos the site doesn't help you at all, then please do so, as it's most important that you don't get dragged down. Perhaps you could post every now and then though, letting people know how you're doing, a little update and such.
Unfortunately I don't know who you are, but know that you are free to add me on MSN or Skype or any of the like (all info is in my profile).

Hang in there :hug: