This hospital is driving me insane. I'm really struggling to hold it together. I've had a diaz with no effect. I'm really struggling with the thoughts and urges. Usually i can distract myself quite well but being stuck in a bed all i'm thinking about is suicide, death and self harming. It's on loop anyway but usually i can do something to make it less worse. But i can't do anything at all now. I have asked for someone to talk to. If i mention it to medical team it's like i'm a contagious disease and they back off or stop me leaving the ward. They're so busy they can't sit down for 2 minutes to talk to me. I don't really know what to do!